When people say time flies, I sometimes wonder what they are talking about. However, yesterday was one of the days that give me goose bumps and make me wonder a lot about what would have been. I remember so vividly when she would come to visit me in school, the way we hanged out and she would tell me to take care of myself and to have direction in my life. It was even worse coz I never lived with her, so I keep wondering what would have happened if she was here. Would I have finished high school and stayed with her until I became independent? Would our bond have become more solid when I was an adult? Would she have cried at my graduation? Would I have seen the pride in her eyes? Would I be where I am today? I wonder who will walk me down the aisle…. I think about it more than I would care to admit. This is just a tiny glimpse of what I think of.
Ten years ago yesterday, I lost the woman who carried me for nine months in her womb. The one who wiped my dirty nose, cleaned my poop, taught me how to be responsible, beat me if I had not blown my nose when I needed to, if I ate with my mouth open, if I played where I was not supposed to. The one took me to high school to inquire when the was an error with the admission letter, convinced me that I should not worry just because I was bottom twenty in that admission list, the one who saw success in my life even before I did. To be honest, time heals all wounds apart from this one. It still hurts, I still cry when I think of her. It still seems like yesterday. Thank God for the special people in my life who continue to support me through life and keep me hopeful and focused. I miss my Mummy so much.
I know that mothers can drive you up the wall, make you wanna go somewhere so far away. I know some people are so excited to leave home and not have to bare it anymore. But what I know best is not having that mother to do all the good things and the bad that they do. And I wish so many times that I had that. So wherever you are today, thank God for that precious woman in your life. No matter the issues you have with her, the fact that she is within reach is what should matter most to you. Treat her with respect and show her how much you love and appreciate her. Celebrate her presence every minute of every day.
May my Mummy Rest In Peace……